Existence

new blog site

joycie1001 — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 03:23:17 +0000

thanks to all who reads and support this blog. you can find more blog entry from me from this site.

http://www.joycieliciouss.blogspot.com

thanks

Fishworld

joycie1001 — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 12:13:19 +0000

It’s my first time to go to Manila Ocean Park. The students of my sister Janice back out from that field trip. Because of that, we were forced (gian, nyle and me) to fill the slot so the reservation won’t be put to waste. And I’m glad we did! Coz it’s so soothing to look at the 300 plus different species of aquatic life we found there. You’ll be amaze at how vast and rich the fish world is! It makes me feel insignificant seeing them in different sizes, colors, appearance and all their glory. Especially when I saw giant sharks and manta rays swimming above us in Buhay na Karagatan (Living Ocean) area. All the fishes are worth spending my time and energy for. But my favorite of all is the doctor fish!

I swear I wanted to take a picture of each and every marine life I saw there! So many fishes, so little time. Lol. But halfway during our tour, I felt guilty. Kc here I am taking a glimpse and picture of them, but there they are, trapped in a big aquarium just for people like me to enjoy them. They should be in their natural habitat. They should be in the open water. But maybe, if the fishes know that they bring so much joy to their spectator, especially the young ones, then they would feel that their residing there is significant. Before I start wondering if fishes have conscience or not (lol), I’ll finish this up by posting my pictures with these fine-looking creatures. If you have time, why don’t you visit it? As for me, I’ll definitely come back. It is really a deeper experience!

new moon

joycie1001 — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 07:43:35 +0000

My addiction to Twilight started as a coincidence only. I like vampire movies ever since. I get fascinated by the stories these kind of movies always offer. So when I heard the movie Twilight last December, I watched it coz first it is a vampire movie and second I watched it out of curiosity. What is this film all about that creates a big buzz around the world? What is this phenomenon that I’m not aware of?

So I watched it. Learned that it’s based on a bestseller book and have a series. I first downloaded an e-book. Then an audio book. Then I bought the books! I can’t seem to get enough of it! Lol. You may ask the most basic question: Why did I get addicted to it? Well, I love Edward and Bella – their love story. How Edward’s love is so selfless and how his love is greater than his thirst, while Bella thinks that she is so ordinary. Anyway, a fellow twilight fanatic would understand. No need to justify myself.

Since last year, I’ve been awaiting for the sequel movie – New Moon. And now it’s finally here. I’m filled with excitement that my heart is beating so fast while watching! Finally I saw it. I’m so happy! I must say this movie is better than Twilight and better than the book! All the important parts are beautifully captured in this film. And to actually watch my Edward in the big screen again, heaven! Lol. I don’t want to give all the details away. You just have to see it to appreciate it. But I have three words for this film: enticing (tlg I don’t want to go to cr afraid I must miss something), visually captivating (just look at Jacob’s abs, you’ll know what I mean), and oh so kakakilig! What do you expect from Edward and Bella?

The last part wants me to scream for MORE! Hayyy… When will ECLIPSE be shown?

Sweet 18

joycie1001 — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 10:14:59 +0000

Last Saturday, I accompany my mother in attending an 18^th birthday celebration. When I see young people celebrating life, it made me wonder where have all the years go? It’s been 10 years since I celebrated my 18^th birthday. Wahhh! Ten years! (I’m really old. *frown) Anyway, I didn’t have a glamorous party back then. We just had a simple celebration with my family and friends. But I didn’t mind not having an extravagant party (like what I witnessed on the birthday we attended) What I regret, was the fact that back when I was 18, I DON’T even know who Joyce was.

Sad to say, when I was younger I don’t have my own identity. I just go with the flow. I was afraid to speak my mind. I made bad decisions just coz I’m afraid to be different and I felt that my choices were limited. I was also so shy. I thought I can never be more than what I wanted to be. That big opportunities are for some people only. I was lost with trivial things and I didn’t even know it! I spent my teenage years, thinking about shallow things. But the worst for me: I forgot to dream…..for myself…

Anyway, as I always say, life is good. Everything happens for a reason. I might not be the girl I wanted myself to be back then, but now I know what I want and what gives joy to me. I know now what matters most. I have dreams and I have faith it would all come true in God’s perfect time. Even if it happens 10 years or 20 years later or how many years! Lol.

However, don’t you just wish you’re still 18?

LSS

joycie1001 — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 08:54:18 +0000

I want need a break. Literally and figuratively speaking. I want to go someplace new. A place free from worries, problems, and complications. (may ganito kayang lugar?) I’ll lie around all day, relax, sleep whenever I wish, eat whatever I crave for, and think of nothing but ME. lol. Sorry I’m whining again. It’s just that I’ve been tired this past days weeks. But it’s all good. I just wish I could go to Cebu or Boracay, or Palawan right at this moment.

I want to breakaway…..and flyaway! > ϋ<

“Breakaway”

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I’d just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes til’ I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I’ll spread my wings
And I’ll learn how to fly
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

between now and tomorrow

joycie1001 — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 10:51:15 +0000

Right now, we’re busy doing a project who was sent to us many times for revisions. For me, my work is depressing. We do the same things almost every project. I feel there’s no growth in here. Plus we’re not fairly compensated with our efforts. Anyway, I don’t want to rant and complain. Coz I’ve made my decision that i wont resign here unless there’s a sure job that’s waiting for me. And I do hope in my next job, I’ll be happier.

I’m willing to stay a little longer here knowing that it won’t be forever. NOW: I may be tired and exhausted, wasting my time doing unsatisfying work, or feeling insignificant, or feeling small, or taken for granted. BUT TOMORROW: Everything would change. Just have to take each day knowing there’s something rewarding waiting for me in the end. Makes me feel a little hopeful. Besides a little sacrifice wont hurt me, will it?

I wont lose sight of the bright future ahead (no matter how dark my present is). I’ll keep running until I get at the finish line. Things are going to get better. I believe!

araw ng patay at buhay

joycie1001 — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 12:11:27 +0000

Nais ko po sana humiling ng sandaling katahimikan para ipagdasal ang ating mahal sa buhay na yumao na.

Bakit nga ba pinagdiriwang pa ang Araw ng Patay?

kc hindi matatahimik ang patay kapag hindi sila binisita ~ abu

kc un na nga lang ang araw para makasama sila ~ gian

kc kylangan mgkaron ng holiday pag November ~ joycie

para siguro pahalagahan ang patay ~ momsie

ewan ko ~ janice

Anu man ang dahilan bakit nagkaron ng Araw ng Patay, isa lang ang naituro nito sakin. Na ang Araw ng Patay ay araw din ng mga buhay! Lahat tayo dun naman ang patungo. Darating ang takdang panahon na makakaharap natin ang lumikha sa atin para timbangin kung naging mabuting nilalang ba tayo sa lupa. Kaya maswerte pa tayo. Kasi pwede pa natin baguhin ang pangit na ugali, ituwid ang mali, magpatawad ng kaaway, at magmahal ng lubusan. Tayo may panahon pa para magbago. E ang patay? Wala na silang magagawa. Maaring nasa langit na sila o sa impyerno.

Kaya wag sana natin sayangin ang buhay na pinahiram sa atin ni God. Pahalagahan din natin ang mga taong mahalaga sa tin. Dahil ang buhay ay maikli lamang. Kaya let’s use it wisely. Ok?! Apir!

Love 101

joycie1001 — Sun, 25 Oct 2009 09:44:08 +0000

Prologue:

I’ve been very busy this past week. Project after project after project. Sometimes I feel more of a slave than an employee. *sigh. Good thing here’s my blog to divert my time and attention. And one of my favorite subjects : ~love~

♥♥♥♥♥♥

That crazy little thing called LOVE. That thing that makes the world go round. Yep! Love can either make or break a person. At first, its all sun shiny day. But when it ends, u feel it’s the end of the world. But no matter what is our experience about love, still, I say, it’s the best damn thing that could happen to anyone!

Here are the lessons I learned in loving: based on my own experience

To don’t complicate things. To don’t think too much. I’m such a drama queen when it comes to relationship. (That’s what I get from watching too much teledrama. haha!). Seriously, I tend to complicate things by getting jealous all the time, or by starting a fight over small matters. Loving is simple. You love each other. Period.

No matter how much I love & want someone, there are just people that I can’t have in my life. That’s the hardest thing I learned in loving – letting go. Letting go when you know things can still workout. When you know your mistakes and you’re sorry. When you still love the person. It is a risk everyone has to take in loving. Good thing I’ve fully let go of a love that is not meant to be for me.

I should be grateful when someone loves me. My initial typical response when someone expresses his love for me was skeptical. I should just be grateful that despite my being ordinary and silly and unlovable features, someone found me otherwise. But being grateful, doesn’t mean I’ll believe them all the way. Girls should always be cautious to guys. *wink

Just because a guy loves me, doesn’t mean he wants to marry me. When you’re in a relationship, you think he’s the one or you’ll end up together. Sometimes it is possible a guy loves you, but doesn’t see himself marrying you. Or worst, sometimes a guy loves you just like he loves his current girlfriend or wife. Ouch! That’s a lesson I learned big time.

Love comes when u least expected. This is true. My previous relationships, I’m not looking for someone that time. It just happens. It’s much fun if love surprises u, don’t you think? I always said this, if someone is for u, eventually you’ll be together. So it’s better not to think about it too much, and one day you’ll be surprise when love comes knocking at your door! So right now, I’m not expecting anyone. (Pro sna dumating na xa. Haha!) Joke! Joke!

Keeping the faith. I’ll be honest; of course there are times I think of love, marriage, children, happy ever after. Things like that. Then I play the “what if” game of my life. What if I don’t get married at all? What if I won’t have any children? What if I just have a child and not a husband? What if I get married even without love just so I can have a family of my own? What if I won 1 million at lotto? Lol. But you know what? I don’t care anymore. God knows what’s best for me. Ill just have to keep the faith!

Uhhh. Love, love, love. Need I say more?:-)

♥♥♥♥♥♥

Epilogue

today im celebrating my 2 years of being single! yey!

SOBER

joycie1001 — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 14:02:30 +0000

I found out last night that I don’t like BEER anymore. I don’t like its smell, its taste, even its effect. Although, there was a time in my life when I like drinking it because of what it creates on me: TEMPORARY AMNESIA. When I was immature enough and confused between what’s in and what is right, I thought it’s cool to drink. I also thought alcohol can help me solve my problem. In a way, that’s true. Coz even in a short period of time I felt freedom from all the pain, hurt, depression, rejection or whatever I feel. But after getting drunk, the problems are still there, sadness still lives with me, and there goes my boring life again.

Now, gone are the days that I run to alcohol to escape from the bitter world of reality. I’m sober now. I don’t want to be intoxicated for me to forget all the things I’m running away from. I’m braver now to face them on my own.

Oh, I almost forgot, another thing that I realized last night was, I MAY stay single for the rest of my life.

LSS

joycie1001 — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 05:13:29 +0000

I love music. I’m the type that when I really like a song, I’ll play it over and over again until my mp3 player broke down. With matching singing at the top of my lungs. Hehe. Right now, the last song syndrome I have is with the song “Look After You” by The Fray. I love the melody of this song and the lyrics are also romantic.

“Look After You”

If I don’t say this now I will surely break
As I’m leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
I’ll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don’t go
Will you won’t you, be the one I always know
When I’m losing my control, the city spins around
You’re the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
I’ll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
I’ll look after you

It’s always have and never hold
You’ve begun to feel like home
What’s mine is yours to leave or take
What’s mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh